Ian

wasted week?

2011-05-28T04:11:00.003+08:00

totally wanted to feel the ice and may be learn how to skate instead of falling. May be another time. Such indecision. Could be my own doing as well. Time to keep the gloves and the beanie back.

At least there's soccer to look forward to... Go MUFC!

time

2011-05-22T00:39:00.002+08:00

Everyday is the last day when i'm with you.

No matter how strong i am i will miss the good ole times.

My dream never came true but as long as i can change my fate i will.

Room Editing

2011-05-15T19:18:00.003+08:00

Its always nice to clean up and have a new look. That goes for our surroundings and ourselves. I remember during primary 5 my teacher actually shifted us around the class (change places) every 2 months. According to him it was to help us adapt better and it would be more relaxing and good for our eyes to have change around us occasionally.

The best part about cleaning up your home is that sometimes you find old stuff that brings back sweet memories. Cleaning together with your parents can be fun too. Webcam after so long but if i put that persons half huge head photo here i will get tickled to death.

Here are some photos of the new look.

know your priorities

2011-05-07T00:57:00.001+08:00

You'll never be an OPTION

You are a PRIORITY.

No, you're more than that...

A short story titled "Bookstore" by Ian Luke Joseph

2011-05-04T23:26:00.005+08:00

Logan was a book worm and he would frequent a particular book store every single day. He would spend his time looking for new books and immersing himself in his daily book reading routine. His record 3 books an hour. Clad in sweater, pants, sneakers and a pair of glasses was all the young man needed to indulge in his addiction.

A staff member there named Elizabeth was quiet and abiding. She would constantly meet the demands of Logan who queried for books of different genres very frequently. Unable to speak, she too shrouded herself with the books of the store. Oh believe me, she had a lot to express but lack the ability to do so, her heart and mind has been sealed shut like a safe padded with security locks.

Elizabeth never knew her biological parents and lived at an orphanage in town. She was a sweet looking little girl with little words to spare. At the age of ten she was adopted by Mr & Mrs Hemsey. Fragments of Elizabeth’s memory was shattered and scattered through her mind. For many years her family has helped her to overcome her inability to speak, read and write.

With enough help from teachers, family and friends Elizabeth was able to lead a normal life though still lacking in her communication skills. At the age of 18th she was able to find a job at a book store owned by a friend of her parents. Most of the customers at the book store were regulars and were acquainted with Elizabeth’s way of helping them out.

Though they have met on uncountable occasions Logan and Elizabeth never spoke a word. Logan did not really bother about other people and was clearly focused on his books while Elizabeth did not murmur a sound. They simply communicated via gestures, note pads and the occasional book titles. Logan would show a book with a statement of what he wanted and Elizabeth would find it.

It was 20th December 2011, five days before Christmas. Elizabeth has since a long time taken a liking to Logan. Though she never had the courage to do or tell him anything. Elizabeth had been suffering from a cancerous lump in her stomach and it was spreading. She was due for an operation soon and inevitably stopped working. On her last day of work Elizabeth left a few books accompanied by a note at the corner where Logan always sat. Logan arrived at his usual time and approached his reading corner. There he found four books and her note which read;

“Dear Logan, you have never heard my voice before nor have we shared a proper conversation. I know this may be a little sudden but I wanted to let you know that I am going for a major operation tomorrow and I won’t be able to help you find the books you love. I have always admired your passion for reading and always wish I could share my ideas and opinions about books with you. I hope that the operation will be successful and we can meet again. Hopefully the next time we meet I will be able to talk to you.” Logan then noticed patches on the letter, which he soon realised were tear drops. Without realising it Logan wanted to get to know her more. However due to their lacklustre way of communicating it was never possible.

Logan felt sad and started to remember the past when he was living with his mother. Who was always ill.

He wanted to see Elizabeth again. Through the books left behind he realised that Elizabeth left him another note from her heart. Laying the books flat out on the floor one by one from the top to the bottom it read, “Life is a struggle. Glad I met you. I Love You. Do you love me too?” A simple message left behind by Elizabeth made Logan realised how much he wanted to love her too. He began his wait for her.

Many months went by and it was the 14th of August 2012. Logan left the book store and flagged down a taxi. He instructed the driver to head to Riverside cemetery. Carrying a book in one hand and flowers in another he proceeded to a grave and laid them down. The book was titled “I Miss You” and the three stalks of flowers were fresh and beautiful Roses which signified the words, “I Love You”. A tear drop grazed the grave. He left after paying his respects.

Walking down the street back to the book store he heard someone.“Logan! There you are!” a voice cried from afar. Running and embracing him and he embraced her. “Elizabeth, there you are. I’ve waited”. He explained that he went to visit his mother’s grave to tell her how he missed her so. These last words were uttered before they fell into a deep kiss.

“I’m glad I went to that bookstore”

a poem someone tried to read and i tried to explain

2011-05-04T20:34:00.001+08:00

A mouse and a frog meet every morning on the riverbank.
They sit in a nook of the ground and talk.

Each morning, the second they see each other,
they open easily, telling stories and dreams and secrets,
empty of any fear or suspicious holding back.

To watch, and listen to those two
is to understand how, as it’s written,
sometimes when two beings come together,
Christ becomes visible.

The mouse starts laughing out a story he hasn’t thought of
in five years, and the telling might take five years!
There’s no blocking the speechflow-river-running-
all-carrying momentum that true intimacy is.

Bitterness doesn’t have a chance
with those two.

The God-messenger, Khidr, touches a roasted fish.
It leaps off the grill back into the water.

Friend sits by Friend, and the tablets appear.
They read the mysteries
off each other’s foreheads.

But one day the mouse complains, “There are times
when I want sohbet*, and you’re out in the water,
jumping around where you can’t hear me.

We meet at this appointed time,
but the text says, Lovers pray constantly.

Once a day, once a week, five times an hour,
is not enough. Fish like we are
need the ocean around us!”

Do camel bells say, Let’s meet back here Thursday night?
Ridiculous. They jingle
together continuously,
talking while the camel walks.

Do you pay regular visits to yourself?
Don’t argue or answer rationally.

Let us die,
and dying, reply.

~ Rumi

Ease

2011-04-24T22:45:00.001+08:00

All the time when You appear I feel more at ease. Its not a good bec it's just me thinking.

I already know your side n the answer but my mind is being swayed over n over. Like a lonely roller coast ride.

Just be happy n no faking.

ns coming

2011-04-24T21:41:00.001+08:00

yeah looking forward to NS though i wont have time for a lot of things and there will be many people that i'll miss. Especially someone.

Are you interested?

Life is everchanging

2011-04-21T00:13:00.001+08:00

You are my motivation and get me through many things, though you might not know it.

Even though somethings might not be accepted as long as you are happy i will try to be too.

its as hard as a bomb shelter and only meant for protecting

2011-04-18T02:08:00.001+08:00

You'll always have a special place.

its like being stuck on a pole in mid air

2011-04-16T03:02:00.001+08:00

i'll hang on till i drop. Cause when i let go i'll fall to my death

Graveyard shift

2011-04-11T00:23:00.003+08:00

Did not sleep from Saturday morning all the way till Sunday bout 11am plus. Reason? Went to "Chinese All Souls Day" apparently called Qing Ming Jie if i am not wrong. We used others tombs to put stuff and crowd around, i think in the end the dead don't mind and we share the luck. I shall buy two 4D numbers tmr (:

Experiencing the visit was something nice and saw my grandparents on my mothers side graves for the first time in my life i think. Being a Catholic i simply said my own prayers and showed a "respect" for them. Of course without them my mother wouldn't haven been born and i wouldn't be here. Therefore i think it is good to respect the traditions in my own personal way.

There were total of 24 people including Uncles, Aunties and my cousins. Seeing how they offered food and money was cool. There was so much money that i wondered why they burned so much and the possible conversion rates wherever my grandparents are. Though i think it really affects the environment it is a spectacle to behold. There were also a lot of other families visiting their relatives graves.

When the sun rose i saw the whole cemetery for the first time in the day. I've been there before for fun but not for Qing Ming Jie. My cousin asked me to place some colored papers on the grave and another cousin gave me an explanation. So the story goes... Many many many years ago in the Song Dynasty there was a warrior who went off to war, when he returned there was nothing and lots of dead people. He wanted to see his parents again or where they were. He then pleaded to heaven for a sign and threw colored papers into the sky which amazingly landed on his parents grave. So Chinese tradition practice this as a sign to finding their parents in the afterlife.

They also used coins which were actually supposed to be two crescent mooned shapes to communicate with the dead. My family on the other hand used coins. If both coins where the same side it means they have done enough can could leave, if it was odd they had to continue on with the burning and stuff. Either or to the coins side, i can't remember.

All in all it was a good day and while many of my relatives were shocked yet happy, i think it is good to respect our families even though we may come from different faiths and beliefs. Family is still family.

there goes another day

2011-04-07T19:05:00.002+08:00

I had a dream last night, it was a good dream, but i didn't like it at all because it sucks to wake up with a heavy heart. I don't think i am thinking too much anymore, maybe its time to just feel through life a little.

When we try to understand another thats when we actually communicate, we tend to miss the past but why look back when we have things waiting for us in the future we can't even comprehend at this moment in time?

Cool when we think about it. Feelings and things and people to meet in the future and the emotion of it all we cannot fully comprehend till it happens. All the different paths we take and how they intertwine with each others.

There's a lot of time, time to waste
lets not make haste, take each day slow
cause before we know we'll be in the future
and the past will be memories of another

So why rush, when there's time?
Use it wisely, make honest mistakes
Pour your heart out and let feelings be made
no point hiding its uselessly sad

try to understand feelings another might have

Endless Rain

2011-04-02T23:21:00.002+08:00

Finally Endless Rain by X Japan is in its final stages. I just hope we can really play that song and do justice to the band. First try arranging a piece for concert. Super complex and i would say it will be play through classical means but i don't think the form of notes are really that classical.

Hope to test it out during the next practice.

Graduation!

2011-03-30T00:27:00.002+08:00

Once again the title is the same as another title before. However this time i finally confirmed can graduate and it's one of the nicest feelings in the world after 3 years of "studying".

Though its sad that not everyone in my batch can graduate together especially my close GEnRe buddies. Thankfully i still have Peggie who also managed to graduate. I was telling her that i will be an alumni before her because my course ceremony comes first wahaha.

I think looking back at these 3 years i kinda regret not being a better student. Makes me kinda scared to think of taking degree courses in the future, but thats that. So it can wait.

GEnRe's concert is coming up and i hope this last concert will be the best of all that i ever had. It will be the last as a senior so hoping for a good outcome. Gonna invite whoever i never invited before and hopefully they can make it.

The new Green Day DVD release is awesome! My most favorite band ever. When i thought they couldn't surprise me with this new release i was totally wrong. They are better than ever bringing old and new songs alike to their concert with totally new flair and robustness. Green Day fans will be proud and happy. Those that said they sold out will be coming back. So its all good.

Finally to end off (i guess this feels like and RJ). Having closure to whatever we do in life is good, thats why death is always there waiting for us. Though, it is what we do in life to make that ending perfect.

Seize The Day

2011-03-21T22:55:00.001+08:00

Well, what i want for the short term will be to graduate and finally complete studies for the time being. NS will be here shortly. Won't get to spend as much time with the people i want to anymore.

Can't wait for the many more adventures in life.

moon

2011-03-19T00:56:00.002+08:00

you're in my heart and mind a lot, though u might not realise it. I'll be there if you just ask for me. I put on another front because its bad to pressurize an open wound. Id rather suffer than let out my feelings that might be pointless.

this will test it all

2011-03-05T03:34:00.000+08:00

Everything will be tested sooner or later. From faith to friendship. Will we ever be ready for that test? Never.

This really smart dumb girl (:

2011-02-26T03:08:00.003+08:00

No need for reason, no need for consoling
because i am alright and life goes on (:
i smile now, you smile too
we will still be good friends because i love you.

Truly to me our friendship is more important and i dun wanna hurt u.
I'll be a gentlemen and just make do.
With what we have a friendship thats true, so don't cry over breaking a little thing or two.

I have grown to love my friends and just like them your in my heart forever too.

I cherish you a lot, count on me and i will count on you. (:

break it

2011-02-26T02:13:00.001+08:00

despite what is done or said, i don't think minds change so easily.

pain pain go away

2011-02-24T22:01:00.003+08:00

No not the physical pain, its the mental pain.

Its so sad and the only thing capable of describing the stress someone i know is facing is crazy. Poor thing.

What you have in this world will not be yours forever. Even if we lose all materials and physical things in this world, hopefully we gain Family and friends that we love dearly. Do not lose your family and friends, and the feelings we have for each and everyone of them. Regardless, love is love, there are so many forms of showing it.

I now understand even more than ever. Truly truly cherish from the bottom of ours hearts God, our family and our friends. It is in times of darkness where we find light in them and it is when a true friend can lift you up from the ground with a simple sentence, "ask me for help if you need help, and i will help you with what i can", even "i love you, and i'll be there". These simple words can bring tears and feelings that we never experienced or felt ever before.

Knowing these people keeps us living even when times are worst of the worst.

All the things happening around me now, i wish i have the ability to show God, my family and friends how much i love them through actions and words. Even if they do not accept it i will at least know i conveyed my message to them and will always keep them in my heart and mind.

To those suffering in the world and my friends and family friends, my heart goes out to you.

The mind does not change so easily

2011-02-22T01:33:00.003+08:00

How do i say the things i wanna say without creating an uncomfortable atmosphere?

How do i keep it all bottled in?

How do i do my best for someone?

How long will it take to realize?

How will it be once its officially over?

How can something special be taken so easily?

How can i love more than a friend but be a friend?

Questions in life threatens us all the time. We live each day enjoying life to the fullest only to pursue these questions from time to time.

What we think might not be true, only in our minds and sometimes way past due. When we take time to regret we dwell in the past, when we should live in the future and leave the dust.

Pluck up the courage to try again, just a final time before it all ends. Though there are many holes around we can find one and settle down.

So try, give it a shot, if things don't work out swim out further, further further till there's another.

Roast

2011-02-17T22:22:00.002+08:00

I think i should zip my mouth instead of irritating a person.

I can't possibly think of saying i won't give up, because who knows of the future when i might.

It's sad, thinking that there was nothing and it was all thinking on my part.

Second chances do come by easily and i don't see it coming by

A new song! That will keep me going on (:

2011-02-14T22:40:00.002+08:00

It never works the way you want it to all the time

Verse 1:
Never knew the best possible solutions
To take when i’m with you
Instead on saying i love you
i pin up all the jokes on you

Couldn’t come to terms with your mistakes
I took it out on you
Tried to help with my sick laughter
But all the jokes on you

Chorus:
So tell me what does it take to get through
These times of fear i put you through
So here’s my apology to you

Verse 2:
I know its wrong me to use
the excuse of this day
and its kinda weak to drop a message
showing my true face

If i had the chance to make it up to you
I’d find a better day
Its not really helping all this silence
Silence please just fade

Chorus:
So tell me what does it take to get through
These times of fear i put you through
So here’s my apology to you

Bridge:
i wonder how you feel about it
can’t do nothing right bout it
is it ok if i stay

i just feel so bad about it
how long will it take to fix it
some things just don’t flow this way

now i got my answer straight up
never gonna be a let up
lets keep things the way it is

Chorus:
So tell me what does it take to get through
These times of fear i put you through
So here’s my apology to you

by ian luke joseph

Right signals

2011-02-05T18:49:00.002+08:00

If only i knew if i'm giving right signals.

Chinese new year this year has been great, all thanks to the rabbit.

Did too many things to type down, but it was extremely fun and i thank everyone for the good times.

At the end of it i came down with fever and lots of other things, bad man especially at starbucks, felt like crap. Though it was one of the best time just sitting there and chatting and playing monopoly deal. I especially liked the chair, and shared it with a very funny clever person who tried to see my cards. lol

Whatever happens we will definitely still be good friends.

Wanted to do something on valentines day, now i think nothing for that day. Can't go out with who i want to, and i think the rest of my friends are going home to study. So how? haha see how things go, UT's coincide with that day.

Xin Nian Quai Le to everyone!

Graduation!

2011-02-02T02:11:00.001+08:00

You might turn down this offer,

but i'm gonna go ahead and tell you anyway!

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!

No matter what the outcome when you gotta know you gotta know!

beast and the harlot

2011-01-28T01:15:00.001+08:00

This shining city built of gold, a far cry from innocence,
There's more than meets the eye round here, look to the waters of the deep.
A city of evil.
There sat a seven-headed beast, ten horns raised from his head.
Symbolic woman sits on his throne, but hatred strips her and leaves her naked.
The Beast and the Harlot.

She's a dwelling place for demons.
She's a cage for every unclean spirit, every filthy bird
and makes us drink the poisoned wine to fornicating with our kings.
Fallen now is Babylon the Great.

The city dressed in jewels and gold, fine linen, myrrh with pearls.
Her plagues have come all at once as her mourners watch her burn.
Destroyed in an hour.
Merchants and captains of the world, sailors, navigators too.
Will weep and mourn this loss with her sins piled to the sky,
The Beast and the Harlot.

She's a dwelling place for demons.
She's a cage for every unclean spirit, every filthy bird
and makes us drink the poisoned wine to fornicating with our kings.
Fallen now is Babylon the Great.

The day has come for all us sinners.
If you're not a servant, you'll be struck to the ground.
Flee the burning, greedy city.
Lookin' back on her to see there's nothing around.

I don't believe in fairytales and no one wants to go to hell.
You've made the wrong decision and it's easy to see.
Now if you wanna serve above or be a king below with us,
You're welcome to the city where your future is set forever.

She's a dwelling place for demons.
She's a cage for every unclean spirit, every filthy bird
and makes us drink the poisoned wine to fornicating with our kings.
Fallen now is Babylon the Great.

She's a dwelling place for demons.
She's a cage for every unclean spirit, eery filthy bird
and makes us drink the poisoned wine to fornicating with our kings.
Fallen now is Babylon the Great.

There is something in my head cracking it

2011-01-26T22:09:00.003+08:00

how do i do it? Through the phone? Face to face? Msg? Letter? I totally dun think anything is gonna happen but i just feel like letting it all out bec i'm sick of it being on my mind more than half the time.

Its not that i dun want to be sincere and just tell, but i don't feel right. I'm unsettled and i dun feel calm. I wonder if i am cared for or thought of.

How how, i just wanna let it out. Though the way i let it out might lead people to think many things.

May be i have lost hope, or just became lazy. Thinking that one day someone will walk into my life.

Why now of all times? I try to show care and concern, but i wonder if its a bother instead.

So fuck the world, kill them all.

A change of pace

2011-01-24T02:03:00.003+08:00

Other worries on your mind
Guess i tend to mess up all the time
I wonder if i can make you happy
Instead of adding problems to your life

Holding back is kinda hard
Not even knowing how things will start
Things might just be on my part
Not liking the feeling when we're apart

A good friend is what you want me to be?
There's nothing more you can give me?
Questions always cause anxiety
The answer lies in a confession to be

If you remember the times that i do
May be it'll all be easier and true
Though i'm keeping away I want you to know
I'll always be there if you want me to.

isn't it ironic

2011-01-15T02:27:00.002+08:00

So obvious yet still oblivious.
I've shown a lot. You don't see it.
I've grown to be patient and understanding,
I'll take thing seriously if i have to, yet knowing when to chill.
A serious one is better than a short term one.
Who the hell care's about what others think. I'm in it for the one i love and not others.
Even if others dislike it i will always look in the mirror and love myself for who i am
When a girl comes by who loves me more than i love myself, that will be when i know she is the one.

The mind is a wonderful thing, thoughts at the back of the mind are the ones that kick us harder than any other thoughts.

Alright enough bull shit and here's another song.

All Time Low - Sick little games

Oh my God, I'm such a terrible mess.
I'm turned on by the tabloids, you would never have guessed,
that I'm a sucker for their gossip, man I take it too far.
I bottle up my Hollywood, and watch them name their kids after cars.

I'm finding me out,
I'm having my doubts,
I'm losing the best of me.

We're all part of the same, sick little games,
And I need a get-away (get away)
I'm wasting my days, I throw them away,
Losing it all on these sick little games.

Fell in love, she was the friend of a sister,
of somebody famous - at least for a day.
Expensive habits and a taste for the town,
had me chasing down red carpets, and watching all my friends slip away,

They're finding me out,
I'm having my doubts,
I'm losing the best of me.
Dressed up as myself, to live in the shadow, of who I'm supposed to be.

We're all part of the same, sick little games,
And I need a get-away (get away)
I'm wasting my days, I throw them away,
Losing it all on these sick little games.

If I play my cards right I can make the big time,
I could be a reason to stare.
Caught up in the spotlight, shaking from the stage fright,
How did I end up here?

We're all part of the same, sick little games,
And I need a get-away (get away)

We're all part of the same, sick little games,
And I need a get-away (get away)
I'm wasting my days, I throw them away,
Losing it all on these sick little games.

We're all part of the same, sick little games,
And I need a get-away (get away)

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmania.com/sick_little_games_lyrics_all_time_low.html
All about All Time+Low: http://www.musictory.com/music/All+Time+Low

What do i do from here on out?

2011-01-13T21:21:00.002+08:00

Life brings many uncertainties and changes. Big, small, sometime even too tiny to crawl.

With what life gives us we must learn to accept. Even the surprises that we never wanna get.

Think rationally, logically and at times with feelings that might lead to uncertainty.

We can only look and move forward not back. There's no point to live in the past we had.

Right now I'm susceptible to anything, though previously I thought i was invincible to anyones bidding.

There is only one life we will ever truly live. Not here on earth but in heavenly bliss.

-Signing off from my phone

Make your move

2011-01-11T01:36:00.001+08:00

"Make Your Move"

I know you're losing sleep over me
I know you'll relive every moment
Below sheets where dreams are made

I know you'll cover your eyes
I know you'll quiver when fingers touch your side
But it all coincides some way.

Move a little closer, hold me tighter
I'll stay if you're gonna keep me in line
Don't want it to be over, move move slower
I'll stay if you're gonna keep me in line (in line)

I know everything reminds you of me
Even the songs you thought I'd never sing
I know you'll mess up your hair
I know you'll do things you would never dare
But it all coincides in some way

Now we're here, with the lights turned low
You won't regret anything we do
It's up to you, now make your move

- New Found Glory

Its a good song go listen to it. I don't know how to put a song on blog. You wont regret listening to the song. Cheers whoever my readers are (:

RJ submission

2011-01-07T00:33:00.000+08:00

RJ question
I used to have a grasshopper which can jump very high, as high as 30 cm. It is one of my favorite pet, therefore I kept it in a bottle and feed it well. After a week, I took it out to play. That was when I realised that it can no longer jump that high, it can only jump as high as the height of my bottle. It no longer remember its capability. So how can I help my grasshopper to get back its potential?

RJ answer
Definitely hard for the grasshopper to regain its previous capability. However the grasshopper already has been able to jump great heights before. When the grasshopper was kept in the bottle i would say that the top of the bottle was the limit. Just like the phrase the “sky’s the limit”. Soon the grasshopper probably lost the ability to jump high because it was kept sealed in and its mind told it that the cap of the bottle was the limit. When it was taken out, it has yet to realise its own capabilities. In order for it to jump high again and beat its very own “record” of 30cm, it would need a bigger room to start jumping around again or perhaps some motivation.

Relating this to our personal lives, humans can only do best when there are opportunities for them to reach further in life. In terms of academics it would seem that if we were kept in a bottle, or in this case our homes all cooped up, we will tend to forget our strengths and won’t be able to bring the best out of ourselves.

In order to get back our potential we will need hard work, practice and find a place where we can excel in. In a student’s case it would be in a school. Self motivation is important, like the grasshopper we would need motivation in order to excel and reach our potential, even to further increase our potential. By getting active in terms of class participation and continuous learning we can achieve even better.

For example, i have noticed a trend in my academic life. Zooming in on my tertiary years i have realised that i did so much better in year one, above average grades, the motivation to score A’s and have a good GPA. My GPA by the end of year one was 3.0. Not too bad and it met my expectations. The grasshopper probably felt 30cm was his “GPA”. However during the second year in RP i slacked off and lost my foundation, missed many lessons and took the system for granted, it was like placing myself in a bottle. Barely making it through year 2 i decided that it was enough and i needed to get back to my year one form. Through self motivation to wake up for school and put a little more effort into lessons i was able to do a little better, and going to school felt good again.

Though i am not at my best yet, i know what i have to do. In order to make a place in the future for myself. So to help this grasshopper remember i would have allowed it to be free to remember its capabilities from before and it will once again reach heights it has never reached before.

Regards,
Ian Luke Joseph

The eve of the new year

2010-12-31T00:42:00.004+08:00

For people who need to bath please go and bath if not you will have not taken a bath for a year haha. Technically.

Resolutions for the new year.

1) Become an even more patient person
2) Graduate from poly and serve a good national service
3) Keep the precious people close
4) Curse and swear less
5) Drink less? (haha may be)

The future as i see it

Sweet like sugar, fine like wine
Making more memories to fill the holes in time
Take a day, take a night
Even a whole year to make things fit right

So don't, don't forget to show
Don't forget to show the love we know
Time will not be on our side very much longer
Going our separate ways till we get older

Still i will never forget
All the funny and good times we had
The clowns we be to make believe
Make believe that eternity is forever at least

Soon all our times will come
To grow, mature and have little ones
It may seem clairvoyant, but it'll happen alright
Sooner or later, one beautiful night

Many years down, let us cross paths
All over again we'll have a blast.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

The 4th day of christmas

2010-12-29T15:00:00.003+08:00

On the first day of christmas my true love gave to me

Go to church, get high drunk and then pee

On the second day of christmas my true love gave to me

My mothers side of the family

On the third day of christmas my true love gave to me

Last minute shopping with Syafiq and an Indonesian kid

On the fourth day of christmas my true love gave to me

GEnRe and all our funny shit

Here's some cards written from GEnRe people haha, if there are any bad english (from Yun Min in particular) its not me (:

From Xue Jun,

Hey fellow pig! LOL. Lik tokin 2 u. Always laughing. Lets play wonderland someday again. Thx 4 always listenin 2 all my crap >.<>

From Sharon,

Merry christmas! I hope that your christmas would be enjoyable and may the essence of christmas remains always with you. Take care!

From Yun Min,

Thanks for the efforts put in GEnRe and i'm appreciated! Thanks for organising christmas @ your house and hope that there will be more christmas gatherings 4 GEnRe in future. Glad to know in GEnRe & you made GEnRe LIVELY & fun! (Esp whacking you also fun! lol) Hope you enjoy this christmas & like my present! (P.S: Treat me alcohol next time. lol) Merry christmas to you and you family too.

Thanks everyone for your time given to the club and to making the 28th of December; GEnRe's Christmas party, a very big success. Hope that all of you enjoyed yourselves. Look forward to more events from the next events person haha! (: Hope that next year i'll be free to plan as well.

Thanks for finishing up the food as best as you guys could. If not i would be eating for days on end. To end this post off i would like to say:

Secrets have been leaked but bonds strengthen. Hope GEnRe continues to grow in all aspects and look forward to our annual concert! (:

Merry Christmas & A Happy New Year

2010-12-28T00:29:00.003+08:00

This Christmas snow will fall

Even if it’s too hot in Singapore

Christmas will make it all

Hope this card brings back memories

For you, your loved ones and all who’s merry

Merry Christmas here’s to many more

To wish all of my family and friends a wonderful holiday.

For Christmas a time of cheer

Lets not forget to bring out the beers

Not to forget its not only now we share

But throughout the year for others we care

The twelve days may be flying by

But we've still got the whole year to realize

December will be ending soon

Closing the days of twenty ten

My dearest friends and family

whom have shared the days with me

Thank you for always being there

for loving you all is the best thing i did.

Share the love through twenty eleven

and may the new year be abundant

Even if we're outta luck

Lets look forward to another Christmas, it definitely wont suck.

Instances : For lovers during christmas

2010-12-17T00:20:00.003+08:00

There has never been an instance that you made me sad

never an instance where i felt bad.

There hasn't been an instance so far that you failed to cheer me up

never an instance where i remained sad

Things grow from a small start, as slowly as their lives allow

eventually reaching a point where they are ready

Two people are the same, just remember to keep watering with love everyday.

By Ian

For lovers during christmas

Mysteries of December

2010-12-07T20:50:00.004+08:00

The tumbling of thoughts to a great valley drop

Never to surface, stays hidden and chained

Been dwelling there for a long long time

Then something came with this game in mind.

Something said, "lets test to see what this could possibly be."

Since its hidden and it must remain, something said lets begin the game.

On it went to pry with questions, to be answered without a trace of reluctance

Therefore no lie was to be told, but i lied and lied until something grew old.

One was strange and couldn't be kept, because a lie would mean a heart would've bled.

The only question lies couldn't keep, was a question of love and someone to meet.

Something knew i couldn't lie, therefore mocked me with utter despise

For the fact that i was thinking of you, i couldn't lie to make something lose.

Something knew that i loved you

It knew that i endeared you

If only myself, i couldn't break away

Eternally to remain in something's game.

A story written with thoughts of light and darkness together in one night.

A story of you's and me's, the present we live in and the future unseen.

To those shelled in mystery i dedicated this to you and hope you have a wonderful December.

By Ian Luke Joseph

Anger turned to love

2010-12-02T02:23:00.003+08:00

This girl is a girl i don't wanna live without

when i need her she's there no doubt.

If days go by and i don't see her face

i'm hoping time flies so i can see her again

When the time comes, i am ready to live without

it'll be till death do us part when i'm six feet under the ground

This would be for a girl i want to love

without conditions and doubts only with suns and a few clouds

forever and ever always together even when i'm high, drunk and out.

I would not say i'd die for you, because words are just bullshit thats true

actions speak louder than words they say, let me prove it in just a few ways

to embrace you, with arms wrapped around

twirling your hair because its cute and rare

and to plant that big wet one

because its a fairy tale and we're ours to keep through wear and tear

-Fairytale perception

enough? Not enough?

2010-11-22T13:56:00.002+08:00

Is it showing enough?

Is it not enough?

Am i caring enough

Is it not enough?

Do you have enough

do you want more?

Am i good enough for you

am i not enough?

Am i reading things wrongly?

2010-11-06T20:00:00.004+08:00

Even if i don't say anything, hope you'll know, this feeling inside is gonna blow. I dunno why those things you do, just makes me think more of you.

This pain in the butt just doesn't go away. Although i kinda want her to stay.
Shall we go out? what do you say? May be again another day.

Wrong signals and turns everywhere, detours that lead to utter despair.
Fret not if its a mystery, if you try then you shall see, the happiness that could possibly be.

The plausible fact of you and me.

Poetry while waiting

2010-11-02T16:03:00.000+08:00

Two sides black and white, to have both is being human inside, to choose a path either or, striking balance will be natures law.

Death is a strong word like love and hate, lets not make this silly mistake. Some when some how when we want more, death might just come knocking on our door.

Impatience is a trait i never liked, harbored within and outta sight, you might see the impatience in me, but you my dear can set it free.

All i can do until you see, deep within me is a deep red sea, until you see it will never part, just like your hand that holds my heart.

By Ian Luke Joseph

Sick

2010-10-23T00:40:00.002+08:00

Sick sick sick, what a prick

Take a brick and knock me out cold

Cough cough cough, i want to fall

Get to bed and sleep thats what i'm told

The concert is up and coming

just a week away, ain't no running

It'll be over before we know it

I realized i have one more song before i make it

Damn this one sided block numbed nose

All i get it snort drops on my guitar

Have to hear irritating noises from the house above

Also from my living room, what a freaking curse.

I haven't blogged in awhile, i hate it anyway

To type out problems is a pain in my day

So i'll rhyme it all for smart and dumb

Hope you understand this little pun

Sick sick sickness, just go away

I know you need me

but i don't need you to stay

So get away, and find another slave.

Sacrifice

2010-10-01T02:21:00.004+08:00

When life gives u a little prick of an asshole in the haystack,

you find the needle and poke that bastard.

When that bastard kicks you in the ass, you kick him back twice as hard with an ass(donkey)

when the donkey kicks that bastard make sure the donkey aims and hits him into a trash bin.

In this trash bin he will find the pain of others divine, that needle will be found, and poke that bastard down!

To end of on a lighter note......

The effort comes with anxiety, but we grab on to positivity, so that we can move forward and achieve what we least expect.

At a days end when we sleep

we think of the things we want to keep

we take them with us before we lay

down our heads on sweet dream's gate

We choose wisely as we can't remember

many of these memories we dwell in forever

The memories we pick will get us through

and wake us up before due

This is why we have our friends

to forever protect from endless fiends

we know we wake up for our loved ones

as we live for them not just once...

But in the life of a thousand suns.

Yeah

2010-09-22T03:18:00.005+08:00

What can i say to make you go away?

Nothing, because you're here to stay.

Right beside we lay staring at stars today.

Rolling over just to say, i love you and hug away.

In loving we feel not think.

In feeling love grows in a blink.

Unconditional love should be.

Warming up to a kiss, oh so subtly.

When i can finally say how i feel.

The first words spoken would be,

your name followed by i love you,

will you be with me?

Deep stuff from hours of stressing and now i can finally have a few hours of rest!

Random quote

2010-09-07T00:35:00.002+08:00

If love was like a safe, i would store every single one of my secrets with you because thats just how much i love you.

A random quote i just thought about.

A change

2010-09-06T02:11:00.002+08:00

Warmness from you standing beside.

But just cause our love for others once died

doesn't mean that we stay in the past.

Cause we have to look forward to the future

take things as they slowly go by.

Even if time might not be on our side

we'll still hang on real tight,

cause if its you and i

i just know we'll make it through tonight.

Sincerity from you only ignites.

Your eyes makes my hair stand on high

doesn't mean i don't find it so sweet.

Cause a simple act of love will be just fine

i'll accept it and let it shine bright.

Even for a single second i will hold you

and hang on real tight,

cause if its you and i

i just know those years will be flying by.

rock!

2010-08-30T23:41:00.002+08:00

Don’t take my heart away

Just let it turn to grey

Cause i left it with somebody like you

Forever never fades

Until i see your face

I ain’t never getting out of here

Cause my soul has been bounded by fear

Gaze

2010-08-28T23:29:00.002+08:00

Sun gaze by day

Moon gaze by night

Something never out of sight

Day brings life

Night brings dreams

At times or so it seems

Sun and moon hand in hand

Day and night side by side

They were meant to be

Right beside never together

Like you and me forever

tarts

2010-08-26T00:17:00.002+08:00

GEnRe's Playlist!

Coming Soon!

i thought of this while i was bathing

2010-08-22T19:13:00.004+08:00

There's a lot to say, if i may

But i can't because i'm afraid

though until the end i'll stay a friend

and so my dear i'll still be near

Until the time is right

i'll stay by your side

only when the time is right

i'll try to say, how i miss you

every single day

This is for all those feeling down in life, and if you need a friend we are always there.

For those feeling that you have hit the worst point in your life because of a breakup.

For those feeling that you have not moved on from the past.

For those feeling that you have changed because of someone.

For those feeling that you want love again.

For those feeling happy because you know this is true.

For those feeling like they wanna say, I LOVE YOU!

Its your fucking nightmare!

2010-08-18T00:39:00.001+08:00

Today was a very vague rainy day, though the weather forecast on my phone showed it was gonna be a thunder storm i decided, heck no, the weather was so hot. Therefore i decided not to bring a sweater along with me. Everything enough for me to survive in school, except the sweater.

Paying by cash through all the bus rides today, really broke this week. I always wonder why i get whacked by people a lot in a cheeky way. Also my t shirts that have been pulled are expanding thanks to a very funny retarded crazy lovable friend. If she wasn’t so annoying i would probably not disturb her so much haha, LOL just kidding.

Alright! It’s time to prep up for Reflections concert and UT 3! I am totally screwing my life in RP from an academic perspective. Over and over again i try to improve but its not going well. What will motivate me to work harder? Anyone?

PS: Yun Min launches her new combo attack on me.. =.- idiot for life!

moliendo cafe

2010-08-15T16:47:00.006+08:00

The performance yesterday at woodlands regional library by Republic Polytechnics Guitar Ensemble(GEnRe) was incredible and i was immersed in the soulful and bubbly feeling of the whole ensemble, they were magnificent and thrilling. The vibe felt from the whole ensemble was so nourishing that it made the audience and themselves feel brand new.

The last song of the whole performance set the standard for the whole performance, it was one of the best ever played moliendo cafe pieces! I'm sure everyone in the ensemble felt that way. It was super awesome. I hope the whole performance motivates every single member, just as it motivated me and the seniors to push forward for GEnRe! Not just to get through being a regular IG, but to show to the world and TRCC that we are here because we have that burning desire to perform and reach a new level.

To all the juniors you all were awesome those who were playing and those who support your own IG! All the effort put in brought you guys to were we are now, without the juniors we will have nothing to plan for. You little guys always get us going. Keep up with the good work, and set a new goal for yourselves each time, through learning new pieces or even working on techniques. Keep yourself motivated in those tough times, and when you feel things are too hard, remember that every single one of us makes up GEnRe and we are all there for each other! So always ask for help if you need some, because no one is perfect! (:

To all of the audience especially family and friends! Without you guys! we wouldn't be doing what we love doing! Which is performing for you all!

To OYM

You dance like a clown and you have the most retarded frown.

But i will say on behalf of everyone, that we all love having you around

You share your happiness and sometimes your abusiveness.

But thats just you, no one can change the fact that your face is round

You're looking more like that lazy bear

but work hard to finding ones who care

I hope all your dreams and wishes come true

Make them into a reality just for you!

Happy 21st birthday though i'm one day late

however for this story to be great

i have to write after a days fate.

When the time is right i know you'll see

there for you when you need me

right there beside me when i need you be

all the worries have been freed

The secrets are safe locked in my mind

tossed away i never will find

i'll forget but remember them

only if you tell me again

your greatest fan and number one bully

all because i need to be

thats what friends do at times you see

and sometimes whisper these three words lightly

. .... ...

Happy birthday again! OYM my wonderful beloved friend!

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2010-08-12T13:14:00.003+08:00

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I learnt the word AH PIAO from a clever girl

2010-08-11T00:22:00.003+08:00

Firstly happy hungry ghost festival to every one who "celebrates" the occasion, firstly, there are a few things i would like to say about the festival, please don't take anything to heart and i mean everything without offence. I shall make a list of the events and things i would like to address about the occasion. So i will label it Ian's hungry ghost FAQ section.

Ian's hungry ghost FAQ section

1) why is it called a festival when everyone returns home fearing the hours past 12 midnight

answer: people call it a festival to make it feel special, if the malay's can have a month of fasting and all their ghost are gone, the chinese are gonna let theirs loose hahaha.

2 ) why do we feed an entity that we hardly ever see, do they even exist?

answer: firstly yes they do exist under our beds, toilets and some small ones can squeeze in drawers (meant to be a joke). We choose to feed them instead of taking 1 month to donate food to people who really need it, those in 3rd world countries? How idiotic are we haha

3 ) some people tell me, "wah knn, super expensive sia the paper and the food"

answer: "wah knn, you stupid uh, take ur old MONOPOLY paper and burn uh!" "Bo liu? CB cui uh! die die, ghost come after you already." Solution to that is, have a BBQ, apparently they only absorb the essence of the food (the smoke), so BBQ you can eat, the ah piao also can eat hahaha, eat together. "C beh song uh!" hahaha.

Message from the editor Ian Luke Joseph:

We do hope that everyone enjoys this month, remember to play safe and wear floats when you are swimming so they can't pull you down. (:

The hotline service is now open, for a limited time of 1 month only!

See ya when they get ya! HAHAHA

Walking here walking there

2010-08-10T00:30:00.002+08:00

Regretted whatever i did today, except making the effort running all over the place just to get to the singapore flyer! hahaha thanks to my friends for navigation and sparing their phones when mine has died.

nothing

2010-08-09T01:05:00.002+08:00

Even those you see who appear strong and able sometimes feel very sad and disheartened. Things that happen that you could never imagine even the smallest things can hurt them in ways one cannot imagine. They get irritated over the same things happening again and again. Sometimes they just want to run away, however they hang on even to that single glimpse of hope to pull them through.

When you see someone who is strong always remember they also have their difficulties. Things in their hearts that they keep hidden from others, until they can find someone to share it with.

Eternity

2010-08-08T01:45:00.001+08:00

For some reason i am here right now missing you

hang on to them

2010-08-06T05:12:00.002+08:00

Yesterday i had the most nicest dream, it was so real and complete, it was everything in reality i probably wished for at this moment in time. Something that brings warmth and happiness, i would be so so lucky if it ever came true, i'm not expecting too much, just contented with how things are now.

The dream led me to just wanting to see you today, a feeling i can't describe, even if we didn't converse, it was only evident that i see you. Something in my heart made me have a need to at least hear that laughter and see that smile.

I wonder if the day will ever come when i get to show how much it means to me, to cherish someone again. So dearly that i could and would take care and protect what i love. Because it is you that i am growing to love, for no apparent reason.

Here i am

2010-08-01T23:59:00.004+08:00

Here i am, for you when your down

Here i am, when you put up a frown

I'll lend you my shoulder if you want it

Its all about you in my mind

Cause

I'll let myself down if i never

gave you my dear at least this bit time

Because its true, i love you

Though i wonder if its just a phase

Because its you, that gets me through

and makes me a wonderful day

I'll break my bones just to save you

from any danger that's coming your way

cause

I'll blame myself if i ever

Let you get hurt in anyway

Because its true, i love you

Though i wonder if its just a phase

Because its you, that gets me through

and makes me a wonderful day

I have just one last thing to say

without you i won't be able to stay

Cause

I won't make it through all the tough times

if you weren't there for me everyday

By Ian Luke Joseph

To You!

AW

2010-07-31T02:48:00.001+08:00

The business times newspaper really has the makings of a good weapon

Fiction

2010-07-27T21:46:00.006+08:00

Avenged Sevenfold you did it again! The Rev forever! You are dearly missed by all A7X fans.

Now I think I understand.
How this world can overcome a man.
Like a friend we saw it through
In the end I gave my life for you

Gave you all I had to give.
Found a place for me to rest my head.
While I may be hard to find, heard it's peace just on the other side.

Not that I could or that I would
Let it burn
Under my skin
Let it BURN!

Left this life to set me free
Took a piece of you inside of me
All this hurt can finally fade
Promise me that you'll never feel afraid

Not that I can or that I would
Let it burn under my skin
Let it BURN!

I hope it's worth it
(here I now am, ye)
I know you'll find your own way
When I am not with you

So tell everybody the ones who walked beside me
I hope your find your own way
When I'm not with you tonight

I hope it's worth it, what's left behind me
I know you'll find your own way
When I'm not with you

So tell everybody
The ones who walked beside me
I know you'll find your own way
When I'm not with you tonight

Incredible song, amazing, shocking, this is probably Avenged Sevenfold at the deepest points in their hearts.\

I left it at the tunnel waiting for it to be found

Though i am searching for yours

I also do hope you find mine.

When the time is right the place will tell

Every yell in me will come out

Professing my deep feelings for you thats right

Today after class went to meet Marc at city hall, ate at a ramen restaurant cost me 30 bucks =.- But was worth it, my first time really eating ramen. No one joined for lunch today, so sad, only the abusive Yun Min haha. Though it was funny, then syafiq came along and we were laughing at stuff.

Need to put in extra effort for fyp, my faci doesn't seem to like me. He is already planning to give me a D, crap shit. I really hope during the second semester i can really buck up. The worst i will just drop IG a little though i can't bear to do that. School sucks, a lot of us need to buck up. Time to start studying for UT 3 or all the knowledge will be lost over the weeks.

Lazy to type anymore

The good old days

2010-07-25T01:48:00.002+08:00

Though not everyone was there it still turned out to be a great day, just like the old times, same places in town, having an extremely good laugh over lunch and eating a lot, also playing games till late.

Started with seoul garden at causeway point, took our time and really ate a lot, considering how we didn't eat the day before and in the morning. Then a long bus ride to town, dropped at far east and walked all the way to paradiz centre in douby ghaut. Played L4D 2 and it was damn funny and fun. Apparently marcus and zul wanted to use me as a sacrifice so that they could complete the level, like before, however my plan was better and got us further in the game haha! Funny though. Today reminded me of the times when we were all young, in those good ole secondary school days. We would say out late and play games, and somehow the feeling was of great bonding and just looking out for each other, and of course huge ass laugh's. The group has become so small now, sadly, but at least we are all still there when we need to be.

On a lighter note, something extremely embarrassing and dumb happened to me today. I fell asleep during the last 5 mins of my 161 journey to school, to my amazement the driver didn't even realise that i was sleeping at the top deck of the bus, i thought they would usually check when they park. Anw i think i slept in the bus for about 30 mins plus. When i woke up, i was in wondering where the heck in the world i was. Then being relaxed as i always am, i walked down, and tried to figure out how to open the bus door from inside. Thankfully there was a bus captain walking just outside the bus, and i hit the wind shield to grab his attention. He looked shocked as though he had seen a ghost, i got out after that, and laughed to myself. Stupid man haha..

Good news!

2010-07-19T00:36:00.002+08:00

I CAN GO TO JAPAN! Stamped and approved by my parents, however i'm not totally confirmed going yet because gotta see how i go about paying for this school organized trip. Really hope don't have to pay cold hard cash! (: VERY EXCITED

Looking forward to all the people's birthdays which are coming up soon! Its always nice to celebrate someones special day, where they were born into this world, because without these friends and loved ones you cannot imagine how your own life would be like.

To all those feeling happy, share the joy with those who are feeling down.

It is in times like this, that we can make the world go round. (:

Avenged Sevenfold stop the teasing and just release all your songs already, i promise i'll still buy the album anyway haha.

Seize the day

2010-07-17T01:27:00.004+08:00

Just finish learning Seize The Day solo by avenged sevenfold, super awesome band!

Today was abused by some girl, haha, quite pain uh, but i think i too used to it already that it feels like a feather hitting me. Today so tired that i didn't have appetite to eat at Macs.

Tomorrow is gonna a nice day! Imagine a electric guitar ensemble, HAHA!

My day was made again! (:

My course got an overseas trip to JAPAN!!! Damn i wanna go! Its only like $1292 considering japan its very cheap, for accommodation and basic food. AHHHHHHH Damn, i feel like asking my parents. Its during the October holidays though! DAMN i extremely wanna go//

Enjoy!

2010-07-15T22:29:00.001+08:00

Love is like a road that has no ending

Embrace the sweetness of your day

The good you do now will come back to you someway

All may fade but love remains

-MONOCHROME

Moment

2010-07-14T02:57:00.002+08:00

The moment you are near is pivotal point in the day i am truly happy! You will never imagine this feelings of mine, unless you feel it too! (: XOXO to all my friends!

Satisfying reward

2010-07-10T22:57:00.003+08:00

Just reached home not long ago after going to tampines. Went to tampines with azhar apparently to buy his stuff and dessert! Nice dessert although i forgot the name of the thing some cheese cake bar, haha then realised i had money to spare since didn't buy a pack of ciggs for quite a long time. Went to SAKE INN and bought a bottle of sake, was inquiring on the different taste, and of course i took the one with higher alcohol percentage haha, finished the bottle in bout 4 mins, quite good i must say, making me feel a little tipsy, which means wow i haven't drank for a long time.

I realised how i need to see you or just say hi each day, thats all it takes to make my day now. I wonder what this feeling is, anw i won't let it affect me. As long as we are all happy! Thats the best. A few other things i wanted to say but then i forgot. Lost unimportant thoughts. Oh oh i just remember lucky can edit the post, i wanted to say, if i forget my password i would have forgotten you.

Totally cannot wait for 27th July 2010!

I wished studies will just burn away..

2010-07-07T22:33:00.002+08:00

All i want to do is pass, i don't even understand anything in digital signal processing. I need to recap everything and start preparing for UT 3, already, no more waiting till last min i've learnt my lesson already, the pressure is mounting and i am only adding more pressure to myself by not studying.

Today decided to just have a good dinner at The Reel Room in the library. At least i still can laugh and rest a little, aside from studies there are things that still make me happy. But studies are the most worrying thing in my life right now. I totally don't want to do what i am doing now in life.

OH WOO, i cannot wait for July 27! Not only is it Marcus's birthday but also Avenged Sevenfold's new studio album titled Nightmare is gonna be released! Awesome! i gotta get it! So many things i want to say also, but i can't! HAHA like i just don't wanna ruin you day.

I wanna shooot myself hahaha

2010-07-06T23:47:00.004+08:00

Firstly i knocked out last night at my com, and luckily there was no disturbance from anything or anyone, i slept through leaving my computer turned on the whole night till morning when i was ready to leave for school.

I would say i prepared well for UT, just that i lacked confidence in myself and my ability to produce something out of my studies, i did a perfect note for myself to bring into the UT however when i reached class, everyone was taking notes from this guy, and they gave me one, so i was deciding so hard which one to use, decided to go with the one my class was using. TOTALLY REGRETTED!

I choked during the UT although i read through and understood the notes i was using. During the UT i kept wishing i had my own notes which if i remembered correctly, exactly what i wrote down came out. Sigh. Very disappointed in myself, after the effort put in. I wanna scold a lot of vulgarities because of how pissed i am, but oh well, its easy to resist typing those words.

Dumb bird flew in my room =.- think what i open the window for you to fly in =.-

Studying

2010-07-04T23:05:00.002+08:00

Today has been a studying day, i am trying my best to understand those things that didn't come out for UT1. As school starts this week i will be have 3 UT's in a row, what a killer, plus GEnRe stuff, which helps take stress off but makes me more sleepy. Sunday's are meant to be slept in haha.

Yesterday was super nice at Ignite music festival, although i missed a band that i really wanted to catch on friday. Sat's bands we're also good, and had a fun time with GEnRe seniors and at the festival, though i wish this pain in my head would be gone and i would have moshed and go crazy. Syafiq and myself went up on stage to dance, and Marcus uploaded the video on FB. Dumb shit man, though it was funny. I can't dance to save my life.

Bought MONOCHROME's music album, and i really see them as a great band both musically and socially. Sadly missed them on Friday at ignite. They have a very cool line up and great sound as a band. Groovy guitar riffs, bass lines and heavy drums, filled with sweet and rocking vocals, their music really captures you and its something one can relate to too.

I fell way down for you

Beneath is a person i feel calm with

A person who makes me smile when i just think of her

Not much to say, just that every time i get to see her

It's always one of the best moments in my day

X

2010-07-02T00:11:00.002+08:00

Yet another day of me missing school.. =.- every time i wake up late or miss school, i feel very couped up at home because i keep thinking shit shit shit my studies, i guess its probably the only thing i'm worrying about now.

I gotta work hard, really really hard for UT 2 and 3.

I got this craving to freaking take a puff, but i'm resisting temptation, not much helping me right now, so i'm just sticking to movies and i really gotta grab something to eat. I feel like eating sweet sweet fruits, like strawberries and grapes, an apple might help. But there is nothing to eat.

FOCUS ON SOMETHING ELSE!

True

2010-06-29T23:44:00.001+08:00

What i said was all true! I think you are special.

Today was such a sleeping day for me, from class to library haha. Things are getting rough haha.

Sometimes you need a shoulder

Sometimes you need a hug

All i'm telling you is,

I was right there from the start

I would love to hug something other than my bolster and pillow haha!

=.-

2010-06-29T00:35:00.002+08:00

So many things i wanna say but i can't haha, i just can't.. But i'm happy, all is well. Almost missed my stop today because my mind was full of things which really distract me, but i'm happy. So many things i wanna describe and say, but the words always come out wrong. I truly just wish to know more things, and if things ever work out that will be the best gift ever.

Super groggy and sleeping today my head was going weew weew left, right, centre in the bus. I just look forward to the end of lesson, because music is alway to comfort me at the end of the day. So much that a single song is a meaningful statement of my imagination and feelings.

Happy Happy Happy, i could still use some ba zhang though, and my Ah Yi made some nice food, especially the Ru Ya or something, its awesome!

Sleeping bag

2010-06-28T00:01:00.002+08:00

I got a feeling to open up my sleeping bag and use it, don't ask why haha. Talking about sleeping bag i still haven't seen the video of myself rolling around a hall in a sleeping bag.

Soccer is keeping me awake. I have to prepare for an extremely busy week, thank goodness i'll be busy with people i can have fun with!

I just stay in silence for awhile, and throw my phone away. Though the only source of goodness is coming from my phone.

Things that stood out

2010-06-27T00:47:00.003+08:00

Things that stood out today

My bleeding nose

Yun min's Apron

Yun min's stupid face

Peggie's sweet potato head

The way erwin, syafiq, peggie and joel eats hahaha

I still suck at messaging after all that practice with so many people! My phone also keep hanging lol, according to marcus ooi yong han my phone is a toy compared to his mighty iPhone!

Sad sia south korea is out of the world cup! ):

Today is a dumb day, overall dumb haha

TIME HEALS ALL

Was there a time i left you sighing?

Was there a time i left you crying?

If there was a time i let you down

Please don't give up on me, don't let me drown.

Was there a time i distant myself?

Was there a time i lost control?

If there was a time i lost all hope

Please don't give up on me, don't let me drown

Was there a time i kicked your ass?

Was there a time i pulled your hair?

If there was a time i inflicted damage

Please don't give up in me, don't let me drown

I'm telling now, i am trying

So hard i'm almost dying

Let it all naturally flow right

To the day when everything glows bright

A little piece of heaven makes my world go round

2010-06-26T00:28:00.003+08:00

Today went to eat with my family at jack's house at century square! Nice meal and talk chit chat and laughing at old memories of me and my brother told to his girl friend, those were truly good times though. My mother wants us to be 10 years old again hhaha.. Ain't happening mummy! (:

Song that i played countless times today

Avenged sevenfold - A little piece of heaven

Avenged sevenfold - Dear God

Avenged sevenfold - Seize the day

I do hope my post are not too long, some people give compliant's that its too long and wordy! haha sorry. That dumb person must pay! wahaha. =.-

Jack's house

Jack jack, hit the sack

Its time to take your cattle back

Meat is good

tea too much

Now my tummy has enlarged!

HAHAHAHA

blah blah blah

2010-06-25T00:52:00.004+08:00

Now its 12:52am so yesterday was my fathers birthday! Happy birthday daddy! Discussed with my brother what to buy for him, but we are both broke and he is buying a new drum set soon, so i decided to use my own money to head down to shop and save and buy him beer, i went there and i had like 10 dollars to spare, so bought 4 cans, just nice the money.. When he came back i wished him and told him bought the beer in the fridge, haha his face changed. Though to my amazement he didn't even drink 1 can yet, and every time i open the fridge, i get tempted into drinking one of those cans haha! Must restrain because it is his present. I was thinking its the least i can give him for bring me into this world and all the things he done for me, so without his birthday i won't be on this earth, yeah go figure.

Today had a super craving, even had a box of ciggs with me incase of emergency, azhar and marc were helping a lot, especially azhar, he grab me at the traffic light outside school and didn't let me light up, also he step on two sticks, i was laughing at the same time, like really laughing. Then i decided hey i'm happy, so i threw away the whole pack. What awesome friends, in an screwed up kinda way, but they help a lot.

So i'm clean and good today, just made a bowl of my own noodles, didn't use maggie and whatever instant noodles there were, decided to use my favorite EE MEE, damn tasty! I will have a very good sleep tonight i hope. (:

Three reasons why i suck as using SMS

1 - people need to think around 7 mins to understand what i am saying

2 - i keep eating the words up

3 - i have a ba zhang face

This really made me laugh like an idiot =.-

haha but really. Its kinda true... (:

Peace out, no poem shit today..

wash wash wash

2010-06-23T23:07:00.003+08:00

I was thinking of doing something nice, only to think that i might get insulted later on, haha! but i think i'll do it anw! I object to violence as a form of punishment!

We all know how seasons change with time in many different countries. These seasons bring about many different occasions and feelings to the people who experience them. To put the feelings and emotions of mankind’s seasonal adventures into one performance, is what we are going to do. A confluence of spring, summer, autumn and winter into a single place. To represent this confluence of seasons, we would illustrate and imagine with a tree of seasons. A tree that changes its appearance to adapt and suit each season, and how a single tree can project emotions of happiness, joyfulness, sadness and love.

Words and phrases to describe my day

Wash wash wash

Fever

Headache

Bed

Food

Soccer

Concert review which i can't do

Boring

Thinking

Optimism

Jumping

cold cold day

2010-06-23T00:03:00.002+08:00

Firstly thank you Yun Min, for lending me the sweater. (: Without it i would probably freeze to death today.. BREEEEEE COLD!!! Please follow your strategy (:

Azhar, just comment that i love GEnRe more than him HAHAHHA!! Its true that i love GEnRe, because music is my passion, music of any sort, it will forever and always will be my first love. But to all my asshole friends, brothers and sisters and my family, you guys mean the world the me, without you guys i won't be the Ian Luke Joseph that i am today! So know that in my heart, it is always you guys first. GOD, family/friends, any other bullshit that goes after that. (:

Cut up my heart
but i don't wanna die
To share with all
I just may cry

To my family and friends
i have no regrets
Loving you all is the best thing i did

Negative 11 Minutes of life

It takes away eleven minutes of my life each time

Sucks away the vitality, that, draws the line

Enough is enough, i'd say i'm fine, i'm fine

Though deep down i know, i might just give in anytime

Chocolates and sweets, you are to me

In my mind, sweet jubilee

When i need help i turn to you

Much more than a friend will be my wish come true

Three bears and a frog fixates at me

Irritating paradigm that still haunts me

Breaking away will cure my addiction

I just wanna be the best damn medicine

For you to use in times of pain

Induced euphoria in pleasant days

Forever the endeavor, holding on

Like this whenever, together strong

school blues

2010-06-22T00:36:00.003+08:00

I'm a lazy bum, stand at attention my arse

I gotta buck up if not i'll probably bite the dust

Pick up the pieces on the ground thats mine

Put them back together because its almost time

Graduation seems near yet so far away

Then we all may go our separate ways

Gotta work harder for my own sake

Not as easy as downing during a SAKAE break

Some motivation would do real well

But i'm just a bum thats all there is to tell

Although this strategy really makes me weep

The dividends of the future is all mine to reap

nice day

2010-06-20T01:17:00.004+08:00

Ba zhang face!

I played the song cheesy beautiful smile, which was composed for a girl i like and about a girl i like, its a song belonging to my band, thought most of the lyrics were from my heart, notes was created by my band mates.. When i play that song only 1 person is on my mind, i almost tear haha! i think i quite retarded, k probably very. Anw hope everyone else liked the song..

Today was a very nice day, i enjoyed myself, dancing and enjoying the performance by Alex's guitar quartet group. They were very entertaining and i was dancing with Hui Yi a bit and enjoying the music in many ways haha. I think i embarassed Alex by shouting his name and "asking for his number and stuff". A very fun time indeed.

Awesome GEnRe, seniors and juniors, awesome conductor and a nice family feeling. After that went to the Helix bridge, somehow just happened to be all the seniors haha. We are more close and our bond is rather strong i think. I hope it will continue to grow, as these are friends i want to keep in touch with for a very very very very long time.

Played a song for you, but you weren't there

Thinking about the things, of which i care

When you came along i smiled widely

Only to laugh harder when you became silly

A thought of you, is sufficient and true

Bliss and wholeheartedness follow suit

Though i remained as silent as i could

My heart was shouting God help me through

Do not subdue your inner desire

B'cause the pain only gets worser

Although each day adds a thousand reflections

I wish you could feel my real perceptions

Lovely daisy, do not be swept

Away by the wind of classic mishap

Hold on to the feeling stand tall don't hinder

A secret vow to a love of fire

For my buddy ah min lol!!

do your work, dun give up

if you haven't bath, get in the tub

Although i call you dumb, you don't mind

you're worth more than gold and dimes

Formal

2010-06-19T00:24:00.002+08:00

Wonderful, sparkling like the red Muleta

You dragged me into your eyes,

eyes that burn of passion

eyes that see all seasons

Wonderful , your beauty i am encapsulated

Running wild into your heart,

A heart that burns of kindness

A heart that shows no blindness

Your beautiful face radiates and deviates

Everything that replicates and initiates

The only one on my mind is none other than

the cloud nine only witty never mine

IF i was a kamakazi pilot

2010-06-17T02:05:00.005+08:00

Bomb bomb bomb! with a down trodden stomp

Bam bam boom! the bodies fly a mock

Smashing my fighter into the harbour

What a relief it must be, for the other

A faint deliverance pats me on the back

Hey numbskull heres a knapsack

I will not bury you but you will die

Alive, but well, here's a final goodbye

The kiss of an angel seems so far away,

Somehow only the devils waiting to say

Come with me kid, you've already endorsed

The fight of goodwill is forever lost

Kamikazi pilots sign that pact

To forever remain in hell's deck

Burning in flames one million degrees

Sounds like a chord maybe E minor agree?

Wahaha

2010-06-16T00:23:00.005+08:00

Thank you peggie for the nice keychain! Very thoughtful of you! haha i shall hang it on my keys.

Today otw home after GEnRe practice, i needed to stop at the toilet at sengkang there, so i went it and did my stuff. There was a radio show going on, and the radio DJ was reading a story sent by this girl, wow it was so nice that i actually just stayed in the toilet to listen, after realising that i was gonna miss the bus i left.. The weirdest thing was that i stayed in the toilet just to listen.. I was mesmerized by the story, and the feelings of the guy and the girl.. Though the girl was just a dumbass at first, thinking nothing of his small gestures of love. HAHAHAHA

I need everything out of my life except, God, family, friends, and music... FYP, reports for a module, UT's can go to hell and rot. I feel so lost now, for the first time in a very long time.. It just gets on my nerves sometimes.

Today heard a story too, i shall a story/poem just for it, kinda pisses me off.

To those who lose faith in music...

Music is about passion and lovers

Music is like hugging your dearest

Music brings joy and happiness

Music is about smiling not sulking

Truly love music and ask for nothing

That is when you will get something

Something much more than cash and cheques

But a love for music, complete without regrets

Ask for no more than an instrument or two

Thats all that you need to do

Put your heart and soul into it

Its not as easy as lighting match sticks

Once you know music and it knows you

You will be blessed and think, hell yeah thats just so cool

Sampan

2010-06-14T20:28:00.002+08:00

Are we still rowing the same boat? HAHA i wonder.. People think i'm crazy bec i shout everywhere i go... I doubt i'll win anything today... stupid damn soccer! so i guess today will b my last bet! time to save money the hard way. (:

Feeling tired, i bet i gonna have a good slp tonight! Today only saw you during lunch, but wow u look great. So cute. The stupid bear is still staring at me. I totally no idea where to put it so just put it on my table which unfortunately as a guy i must say i am sad and it feel funny to have 3 bears and a frog staring at me.. Oh and also a robot clock.

I told my friend today that i have no luck for myself, only give luck to others. Well at least i confirm have no luck for myself.. So she replied with a very unexpected answer, like i wasn't evening thinking about love at that time, but anw she responded with, you just need to find the right person. When i read i was HUH! Then i realised oh ya, so thats what it meant. So i thought about it and just decided to let everything flow naturally as i am too tired and sick of forcing things or moving to fast. So i just leave it to nature..

I'm sure there will be someone who feels the same for me as i do for her, and she gives her luck while i give her mine, and we share that love for each other! AWESOME! WAHAHA!

I wish it was christmas so i can forget about everything else

2010-06-13T23:46:00.005+08:00

Oh school starts tomorrow, i was hoping that it wasn't true, so i asked around and confirmed with some friends, but yes its true. School starts tomorrow and i am totally not ready for it, having a test on wed, but never studied yet, FYP is the devil right now. I totally do not enjoy what i am doing, however i will try my best for my parents sake and my sake, just to get the cert. I wanna graduate with everyone. My biggest and probably only fear now is not being able to graduate at the end of year 3.

All i can think about when i look into my future is just music music music. I wish it was that easy. But thats all i see in my future, i don't see myself doing anything other than being a musician, or dealing with entertainment productions. I somehow have that faint glimmer of hope that i can make it to my dream. Reality just keeps you held back. Well without my friends and family and music to look forward to, my days as Ian Luke Joseph will be really stale and boring, and i will be extremely scared living the way i live now.

How an sms makes me feel (LOL)

A message signals me thinking of you

A reply urges my response to you

A laugh, haha makes all seem real

A dream ta hah makes it all surreal

Everytime your name appears

I feel everything disappear

As i read the message i try to describe

this sweet sensation that just feels so right

As i reply i just have to say

I hoped you had a wonderful day

Worst day ever

2010-06-12T19:57:00.004+08:00

Today was the worst day ever! I did not sleep at all! until like in 12pm the next day! so like more than 24 hours no slp.. Not that i didn't want to sleep, i jus couldn't. This the worse ever craving madness thats ever happened to me. But i will do it. You do not know it but when i think of you, you just help me a lot! I need my butter sweets! I shouldn't have pass Yun Min the whole packet haha! She might have ate all alr, well i dunno. lol I don't mind if she does, i jus needa buy another packet!

Had the most craziest headache ever, from my eye to the back of my head like a line that will split my skull into two parts... This morning still supposed to go band practice and i was just pushing myself, then i realised damn my vision became damn blurry, and i decided i was gonna rest, and enough pushing myself. Thankfully my awesome bands mates are nice people. I couldn't send the lyrics to them by sms, bec i couldn't see and was in cold sweat.

I just slept in like a very weird position until 4 plus? i guess... still didn't sleep much anw, but feeling way better. Still shitty but better than this morning. No extra coloured post today, maybe later. Don't have the strength... Fever coming up

2010-06-12T19:57:00.001+08:00

beer

2010-06-12T02:30:00.002+08:00

Finally had jus one can of beer after not drinking for a really really long time... Almost won like 30 dollars for soccer bet, but that south africa dude had to hit the bar, but i really enjoyed the match, although i didt win, i was laughing alot.. I've really got no luck for betting and gambling which is why i don't, but once in awhile jus for fun i will haha..

I wanna thank all my friends for helping me quit, and chatting with me through the craziest cravings.

the guessing game

I asked you to guess only to know you will never be correct

My heart is out in the open for you to dissect

Its such as mismatch i won't reveal anything

But it seems we do get along as human beings

I wonder since when you meant a whole lot to me

I could say i love you without fearing my enemies

Your so dazed in sweet serenity

So nice and might, filled with dignity

Funny at the same time full of fidelity

I know any man is lucky to have you as honey

Thanks for the smile!

2010-06-11T00:46:00.003+08:00

THANKS GEnRe FOR TODAY!

Wah super long bus ride! (: left my sweets with ah min, bec i was too lazy to bring home, shld have taken a few bec the craving is super bad now, i went to eat supper with azhar and marc, talking bout world cup and betting and laughing as we always do. I reached home and immediately tried to look for cigarettes, thank you god, bec there were no cigarettes around. I would be puffing away now if there were any....

Aside from the crazy shitty, way i am feeling now due to the craving i wont smoke! (: just keep thinking and thinking. Humans like all animals were born with feelings and instinct, but we developed a more efficient way of living, through thinking we built the world we live in today. Imagine your life without thoughts, jus pure feelings, how easy it would be to love someone without thinking about your surroundings and how other people will affect you, or the person past and stuff like that. Just loving that special person for who he or she is. Without thinking we would all be much better off loving, feeling loved and feeling to love each other. NO MORE THIKING!

But sadly in this world we live in today, we think a lot and most of the time, in a way there are pros and cons, however i still wished i did not need to think so much about love. Instead let me feel my way through. A friend once left me with this sentence, "feel don't think" when it comes to love. Easier said than done, however i do believe it is possible with every bridging step.

Here's a thing i like to type quality bullshit, but bullshit from the heart and it becomes fact.

Humble Misery

Running across the road i see your face

Thinking to myself what we could make of our days.

Turn a single day into a million nights

Until the day i die, i'll make sure to hold you tight

If only is was as simple as tic tac toe

But we all know that its a crazy no go

Using a lot of IF's because of the uncertain future

i've got a fever, and i can't wait no longer..

Oh sweet girl, my fate has not yet been sealed

In this twist of fate, my heart just wants to yield

You as my insignia, my hearts true desire

Just smile like you always do, it just takes me higher

TAH!

2010-06-10T02:49:00.000+08:00

WORDS TO DESCRIBE MY DAY

simple

fun

relaxing

cold

thoughtful

dancing

laughing

eating

talking

walking

jumping

soccer

yeap thats about it simple day haha

rain rain

2010-06-08T20:47:00.001+08:00

I love rain days! But today's rainy day feels so sad and tiring, had band practice almost all afternoon til evening, got a new song and worked on the old ones as well. Very creative except, i wish to get more out musically and lyrically. How i love Goodbye Eternity, the effort we put in. If only i can quit studies and focus on music, or be in a music school.

I just want to sleep now. I got to talk to you more and i'm happy for that (: I guess talking to other people also gets me to stop thinking of you. Why you of all people, its the weirdest possible relationship ever, if it were to happen. Doubt it though. I will continue to sail the boat with my fren haha! The cute and matured girl lol... She row while i slp. (:

Rosario

2010-06-06T16:44:00.005+08:00

Once again i slept at my com, though manage to turn it off just as i was about to slp, which was around almost 6am haha.. Yeap, i did have a super nice dream again, to my surprise it was about you again! what the heck man, i gotta stop having these dreams, although its nice and i get to eat A lot in the dream, the food and everything is free, even taking taxi and stuff, and i can like teleport in the dream HAHAHA!

I don't want to have this dream anymore because i don't think i'm anything more than a friend to you, i hate the feeling of one sided liking. I always wonder what my next love will be like, how will i feel about her, and how will she feel about me. hmm Wah i can't believe i wrote such an emo post hahaha! but lucky the paragraph about the dream quite funny. (:

Going to eat sushi at sakae sushi for dinner! damn i can live on sushi! I should probably also dye my hair first then cut it, or shld it be the other way round? I realised i took up my phone to msg you bec i thought about you, but then i put it back down after thinking about it, i then decided not to msg, its always like that..

In the mood

2010-06-05T22:06:00.006+08:00

What a day, fell asleep ytd while talking to my friends haha, i realise i am starting to fall asleep at the computer quite often, this is not good. But what is good is that i always tend to have nice dreams when i fall asleep at the com. Yesterdays dream was crazy man, half happy half sad.

Strangely you we're in it, so was my band and GEnRe hahaha! What a super weird combination, anw i was really smiling a lot in the dream and i woke up with a smile on my face, which really made my day just nice! Went to eat with my bros and bought 4d for fun, we all shared bec i got hit in the head by a flying bat. Such a funny story.

I just love the holidays, it gets you in the mood for things, but now that i think about it, i needa work out, train my stamina, stop smoking totally which i will, almost there, just need that once last ounce of motivation from some kinda source. Gotta study also, recap those stuff learnt in school, especially my super weak module, which is full of math!!!!

How i wish my life was just, my family(bros and relatives), someone special, GEnRe, music and travelling all day long. But whatever life gives, you just take. So here's some twisted story i wrote of something haha, good luck figuring the riddle if you read it.

A Seeds Passion

You give me warmth and protection

Until sun rays lit up my soul, i was bounded, me to you

You lit a lamp which guided my heart to you

I leaped only to find out what ahead was one sided

So i stood, upon the roots

Growing as fast as i could

Praying each day would hurry

So i could give you shelter, refreshment and curry

Though with each fruit my soul diminishes

I know that you are delighted.

I provide shade and nourishment

Never limited only bounteous

Til the day i die, i want be your tree of life

First impression GEnRe camp 2010

2010-06-04T23:47:00.002+08:00

Thanks to everyone who wrote stuff on the paper.. Without you all i wouldn't have this much energy for the camp, although you guys woke me up too early! HA. I will make people read this blog soon! With interesting stories and riddles of life! TOOOT TOOOOT.

ian! thanks a lot for everything! you guys(seniors) are very very kind and fun. Appreciate for your help and jokes ~~love you~~wink*wink* haha! - Ging Xia
hey inky! thanks for the camp like seriously i loved the camp. Its great chatting with you but don't influence me into being hungry lol. Btw thanks for offering to lend me your sleeping bag (:
thanks for the planning and stuff, you make this camp fun. thanks alot (: lets work hard together for the future (:
energetic
super friendly and funny
funny friendly and kind
very funny and full of energy
funny and helpful
hi "i love ian" friendly and fun! good job with the planning of the camp - amelia
very funny and like a big brother - zhi yin
very funny hahaha thanks for the camp - bren
hey you were the life of the party, great leadership and awesome interaction especially the card games appreciated a lot! thanks, keep this attitude going! - kelvin
Superb leader and a fun person! (:
Aneh!
its fun having you in this camp
you were the "soul" and voice" of the camp. it was fun having you around(:
a very loud and energetic person. thanks for all the games you've organzied
crazily hyper in a good way (: thank you for the camp and everything
friendly like a small brother
funny crazy too skinny
ian to inky
look like lamia best friend lol had fun time especially welcome tea
hello ian, you are so fun! haha nice knowing you!!! its fun having you as our senior! cya soon!
you are 1 awesome dude! glad to have you as a senior rock on \m/
you are nice eh!! very outgoing!! But! how you get the tattoo?
joker nice
hi inky, thanks for everything you've done lets work hard
ian, man, moar, moar, awesome weirdness mwahahha!!!!!! (:
you slap the classical guitar!!
hi ian, nice and friendly funny senior
thanks for everything. The effort you put in!! (:
my gay partner! JK, the one who gave me my nickname thanks! nice guy, all the best - zhongster
outgoing, talkative, energetic. overall nice guy/senior, see you at the next show luke skywalker
outgoing and damn energetic, a very fun senior! funny too! you always make me laugh! (:
Yo! you are the ice breaker
lets meet leslie
yo! nice person and fun to talk with. doesn't really have "age gap" with.
crazy funny gentle enthu, super on! (:
crazy bitch, awesome threesome shit!
hi ian, thanks for organizing the camp! very noisy and always bully me! i will ask lamia to fight with you!! (:
nice guy, really nice guy! outgoing. funny! (: (with a tongue)

K i think thats bout it wooo... Thank you juniors and seniors for these encouraging funny stuff you guys wrote! (:

GEnRe

2010-06-04T19:26:00.002+08:00

GEnRe is just getting more awesome and awesome, sadly didn't get to share my ghost stories with the juniors as i did other things instead!

I hope this batch of juniors will be wonderful and keep GEnRe strong! All the seniors have put in their best effort for everything so far! Even some alumni members.

Attraction is a very dangerous thing, i don't wanna face the same thing again, i'm unsure of it, and my guess is probably wrong. But your heart makes you do stupid things at times. I am attracted to someone, just like i was almost a year or so ago.

awesome holiday!

2010-03-25T16:10:00.001+08:00

Go to my facebook profile to see the pictures of my holidays! awesome time with my brothers! the work money was well spent!

just like the good ole times (:

2010-03-06T02:14:00.004+08:00

For everything that made me who i am today i thank you! There are no failures in life, just change! To those who need support may there be family and friends, to those who need a livelihood may there be abundance in the world, for those who need love, may there be that special someone.

I have learnt to be ever more patient when it comes to life, you only have one life, live it, do the right thing and have a fruitful one. I am blessed and lucky to have many good lessons in life that make me who i am today. I'm not saying i am right or perfect, i'm just content.

Even though the bridge has not yet been completed, i'm am looking forward to every event that will create my bridge, it is not the complete bridge that matters, it is what it takes to make the bridge. Until i meet you, i will continue building the bridge as straight as possible to reach you. I will avoid bends and curves to make it easy for us. To the future, i'm looking forward to meeting you. (:

nice

2010-02-24T00:34:00.002+08:00

dunno y today so hot weather as in i feeling hot... Had a nice cold bath after work, just reached home.. Now with the aircon in my room on i am still sweating??? Today work was awesome, i like my job, it works both my mind and my body... I feel fit, even my chief said i like can carry heavy stuff now and last time can't.. Also after work i don't feel tired, my new strategy is follow the banglas, eat a lot of rice so that got energy later on... Today for my late lunch as usual i went to whitesands, and ate mixed rice, i asked the aunty for 3 servings of rice, although i can eat a lot my body still doesn't put on weight.. Even with all the protein i eat, guess its just super high metabolism. cool shit.